what is this?

what kind of this feeling, anyway? am i in love? no. but no. then wish i could answer all those questions which always popped up in my mind recently. he's my ghost. favorite ghost. as if he appears wherever i go, whenever i dreamt. why do i want him to hear the same tunes as mine? why do i always go to his profile and refreshed it again after couple of seconds later? and why do i always wait for him getting online? and smiling of myself after he got me chat. and he's such a lovely friend thou. why do women always use their feeling for this kind of thing? while men don't. or this is just their buzzword to get our heart easily. deeply in talk, let's pretend that this is not happen now. i just close my eyes and try to let the questions will answered by the time.